Nepal (Mis)Adventure Days 4 & 5: Syange

I’m currently here in my room, resting. Originally, I should be hiking up north today but I can feel that my body is still adjusting to sudden increase in physical activity and altitude so I decided to give it time to recuperate which I guess is also God’s way of telling me to rest because it’s Sabbath day.

That was my activity from yesterday. I walked a total of 19.1 km. The second half of that took more time than the first half because I was already tired, obviously and because of two of my most dreaded things during a hike: stairs and descents. This trail gave me descending stairs!!!! I literally felt like crying. My thought bubble was: will I ever make it? Where is the next ascent? Where will these stairs end? Halp!

When I got to Ghermu, where most trekkers stay, I decided that I should go to the next village, Syange. I asked for directions froma guy and he said he’s going to Syange too and he has a guest house. He offered to carry one of my backpacks, and thank God he did because guess what…more descending stairs! 😭

He offered me a free stay as long as I eat my meals with them which is fine with me because their meal prices are just the same as my previous lodging in Bhulbule.

When I told him this morning that I will be staying with them for one more day, he offered to take me to the nearby falls. It’s beautiful!

It’s freezing though so we didn’t stay long. Syange is a very peaceful village. I’m glad I stayed an extra day.

This view makes me feel like I am inthe Bible times. This is probably the kind of view that King David was looking at when he wrote the 23rd Psalm.


Nepal (Mis)Adventure Day 2: Kathmandu (Rated SPG)

I need to hit the sack soonest because tomorrow early morning, I will be traveling to Besisahar so I need to wake up at 5:30 am. Tomorrow is the day, everyone! I will finally start the real adventure. Please pray that the local bus I will be in would not have any problems and that I would arrive in Besisahar early enough to trek for about two hours more.

My roommates and I are all going to the Annapurna Circuit but not at the same time. We decided to go and get our permits together.

For Filipino readers: search Jadine’s Bahala Na before you proceed and play that while you read. Follow instructions!

Ok, so we went to the Tourist Service Center just outside of Thamel.

To get our TIMS permit, the permit to trek the spots in Nepal and the ACAP permit to trek Annapurna. Each costs Rs2,000.

The whole process did not take long and we got our permits in less than 30 mins.

An obligatory selfie to celebrate.

Ok, altogether now: 🎵🎶 Naniniwala na ako sa forever magmula ng makilala kita…na na na na na na 🎶🎵

Hanggang ngayong gabi na lang kami magkasama ni poreber. We went our separate ways after that naglakad lang kaming dalawang magkasama ng konti. I decided to go to Durbar Square where this happened:

Every where I go, someone would tell me that I look like someone they know. In fairness to me, many people here look a lot like Filipinos.

The Square is a place of several Hindu temples. It is where their living goddess, Kumari, lives. I hired a guide who explained to me the process of choosing her. Basically, a three year old girl who was born on a full moon with the right zodiac sign and palm lines would be chosen and be subjected to a lot of traumatic things and she’s not supposed to cry or get scared. Things like watching hundreds of animals get killed, staying in a room alone with scary objects and priests wearing scary costumes and playing scary music.

One of the temples that stood out for me was the “Hippie” temple. They called it that because during the 60’s and 70’s, Westerners would come and buy hash across the street and get high in that temple. He said even Jimi Hendrix performed there. Ewan ko lang kung ineechos lang ako ni kuya guide ha? Unfortunately, it was destroyed by the 2015 earthquake.

Another interesting thing for everyone, I’m sure is the Kama Sutra temple. Yes, the carvings are rated SPG.

Do you see the carvings? Here, I’ll zoom it in for you, you pervs.

What’s funny is that just across is a god in the form of a monkey whose eyes were covered. He said it is because he is a celibate god and he’s not supposed to see the Kama Sutra things. I mean, seriously? How cruel can they get? The guy is a virgin and should be a virgin forever and they put right in front of him the sex temple. The planners of those temples are just sinister. Couldn’t they put him in another location, like beside the Kumari’s residence perhaps because she’s a child and innocent. That poor monkey god.

Anyway, after that, I went to the Swayambhunath, I did not hire a guide this time. Basically, it was all stairs before you reach the idol.

There were even more steps before that.

There was nice view of Kathmandu from up there with the Himalayas as the backdrop.

After that, I walked all the way to Thamel and incidentally, I met my trekking demigod roommate and she decided we should walk home. So here is the summary of my activity for today:

And with that, I am exhausted right now and I have to go to bed. Good night!

A Test?

Today I just want to throw in the white towel. Blame it to the lack of sleep but my patience is definitely being tested today. Last night, I had a feeling that my tire was flat while running but I did not bother to stop and check. Today, I was told that I would probably need to replace that tire. I love that car, I feel safe in it but right now, I don't think I can deal with it. I seriously want to sell it already. I could do without a car for a while.

My Quickbooks is giving me a hard time as well. There is a report that is not printing out correctly even after I spent the whole day yesterday trying to remedy the situation. I don't know how I would proceed without a significant misrepresentation.

There are days when everything is fine and dandy. NOT.TODAY.

Confused. Again.

I don't know where else to express my confusion. Twitter and my notebook were apparently not enough. I feel confused because I don't feel accomplished. When I am at the top of my game, I am confident, sure. Not right now. I know that everyone goes through this and eventually, things would be all great again but now is a time when I have to crawl figuratively through everything just to have some motion, just to keep moving.
For now, I just have to keep telling myself this: you will have it figured out when you need to have it figured out.

Books And Self-Esteem

I volunteered on screening books that would go into our library so I have just finished four books about middle school. This made me realize that generally, all books’ main characters are average, indecisive, with annoyingly low self-esteem, clumsy oftentimes, but with an amazing hidden talent but they think they are not good enough. They have friends who are pretty, confident, more willing to explore things.

I do not have any background in literature so I don’t know if this was some literature formula that the authors have to stick to to make the stories engaging or what. I am just wondering if these books are feeding the readers’ low self-esteem. Like, you should be totally unsure of yourself until some handsome guy helps you reach your full potential. 

I am also wondering if the stories are made that way because most bookworms are awkward in real life and have low social skills, to make them (us) feel better about ourselves? 

Most popular kids are not very much into curling up in their bedroom, reading books, you know? They’re out there, enjoying life, making adventures, having fun. Plus, you know what they say, good writers are excellent readers. So these authors were the awkward ones too before? Haha… I don’t know where I am going with this. It’s just an interesting observation. 

Day 4 Wo:rse am

Abort mission. I repeat. Abort mission. Do you copy?

Today, I did not even eat breakfast. I just woke up, prayed, showered, got dressed, rushed to the devotional. 

Time check: 7:31.

I got up a couple of minutes before 7. My body felt too heavy to get up. I tried sleeping early last night but I can’t. I ended up reading until almost midnight. I need to reset my body clock but I’m not holding my breath for that one just yet.

Badminton tournament is still going on until the end of this month. I will TRY to sleep early each night but I have to hope that my body would cooperate with all the adrenaline rush it gets during games. 

Day 1 6:09 am

I have been trying to start my day early. Today, I finally decided to get out of bed after just one press of the snooze button. I usually press the snooze button until after 7:00. haha.


  1. Got up.
  2. Prayed.
  3. Drank water.
  4. Did 10 minute ab exercise.
  5. Cooked french toast.
  6. Ate breakfast.
  7. Turned on my Wi-Fi.
  8. Checked Twitter (while eating).
  9. Washed the dishes.
  10. Took a shower
  11. Got dressed.
  12. Brushed my hair.
  13. Rushed to the staff morning devotional.

Time check: 7:32 am.

Sunday Currently Vol. 2

Wow, it’s been more than a month! I survived the very busy season and now, I can have some good downtime again. 

Reading “Francona – The Red Sox Years”. I am not a follower of MLB. Reading about the lives of extraordinary people inspires me though and I don’t mind learning a thing or two more about baseball. I’m also reading “Prayers” by Ellen G. White. It is a very inspiring and powerful book that can change the way you pray. You know, not just uttering a prayer that won’t get past the ceiling, as a Filipino saying goes.

Writing. Just this entry. My most recent “writing” activity was when I made the promotional newsletter for the Agri and Aqua Fair last Friday.

Listening to the noise outside. Sounds of cars passing by and of construction.

Thinking of a lot of philosophical things and ideologies. Last week was a hard one to survive for me emotionally but God answered my prayers in a very tangible way that reminded me how He’s always there for me even if I am more overwhelmed by my troubles.

Smelling my breakfast. At 11:32 am. (Fried egg and toast)

Wishing to receive a travel/adventure surprise soon, preferably to 🇯🇵. 😉 

Hoping. Now, this part I am not so sure. My prayers just got answered and now I don’t know what else to wish for. To be stronger maybe? So that I would not have any problem for my trekking plan.

Wearing a long, black sleeveless dress that I only wear inside the house.

Loving the conversations I had last night. It gave me the much needed emotional boost.

Wanting to go out and eat and just feel pretty. 💁🏻

Needing to lose some fats in the tummy area. I haven’t gained weight but I look like it. #bloated

Feeling just right. Not ecstatic, not lonely, not excited…you know, one of those days when you are not wishing you are somewhere else but you also wouldn’t mind going out.

Wesley So And a Lame Article 

I was never a follower of chess except for the short period where I met the CEO of FIDE in 2012, Geoff Burg. Before that, my only exposure with chess was watching my uncle play until the wee hours of the night whenever we had family affairs. When I met Geoff, I was instantly attracted to his beautiful mind (and sexy accent) and I gave chess a try. He even encouraged me to go to Norway to be with  the Palau Women’s Team. Anyway, I was not able to join because I was about to go back to the Philippines then. I did not join the qualifying competition as well. I don’t know if I would ever have made the team if I tried to.

That was how I became familiar to the world of chess. I learned Kasparov and Carlsen and a lot of other top players’ names. Wesley So, I was familiar with because every once in a while, his name would be mentioned in the news whenever he wins a tournament abroad. Yes, only when he wins a tournament ABROAD. Apparently, for the Filipinos, the wins are only big when they are won abroad. 

Wesley eventually decided to join the USA  team and ditch his Philippine team. All of a sudden, the Philippines got clingy with him. They did not want to release him. If my knowledge is correct, he did not join a tournament for a year because the Philippines would not let him go. Only by not playing for a year would he be able to transfer.

Fast forward to 2017. So is now ranked as world #2. He is undefeated in his last 56 games. Then I read an article from which was titled, “The Filipinos Loss Is the Americans Gain.” I was appalled by this statement: 

In an article about So posted on the Star Tribune on Monday, the writer never mentioned he is a Filipino. Or was. And this is where the debate begins.

So has been playing for the United States Chess Federation since 2014, but he remains a Philippine passport holder.

The article did not mention that he is a Filipino because it is not important to them. It is not important to anyone at all (except for the Filipinos). Why do we love to claim the success of others when we have got nothing to do with their success anyway? Did the Philippines give him a scholarship to anything? Did they support him in any way? Now, all of a sudden, they would feel “betrayed” by someone who is only aiming to reach his full potential. Had he stayed in the Philippines, he would not have that opportunity of becoming a champion. We have very limited resources, little support. This is not like boxing where you have to slug it out. Philippines is a good venue for that because we can train even on the streets. Chess is different. The training, the discipline. It is a battle of minds. Where will Wesley find his equal in the Philippines for training when at a very young age, he is already above everyone else?

So please, just be happy for him and stop pushing that nationality issue to him. In telenovela speak, WALA KANG KARAPATAN! 

This Paradise Feels Like a Prison Sometimes 

I couldn’t compose a decent intro so I’d go straight to the point. This place is a mental prison sometimes. I know I have friends I can talk to online who would know exactly what I am talking about whenever I feel like it but there are times when I need someone who is physically here. Someone who would give me a real time reaction, spontaneous conversation. 

Don’t get me wrong. I have friends here and I love them all so much. They are all so precious. But I am looking for a fellow woman who gets me. I want the thoughts, ideas to flow, to be shared. I need the conversation where you lose track of time because both of you are learning from each other, not one monopolizing the conversation.

I miss being surrounded by really strong women. Women who are secure. I can’t even express it into words. It’s just that when you find them, you know. 

I have no problem finding men who I can talk to in that manner, their wives have a problem with me though. 😳